Endless Hallelujah

While sitting in church today I happened to be sitting in "your" row. I hadn't really thought much of it because we have sat there many times since you passed but suddenly the song Endless Hallelujah started playing. Just singing the first few words immediately brought a lump to my (already) lumpy throat. I glanced down the row to the seat you usually sat in which was occupied by someone else and I imagined you standing there...read hair, hands raised up in the air, eyes closed, singing your heart out to your King. It was way more than I could handle I broke down in tears. The song goes like this:

When I stand before Your throne
Dressed in glory not my own
What a joy I'll sing of on that day
No more tears or broken dreams
Forgotten is the minor key
Everything as it was meant to be
[Chorus]
And we will worship, worship
Forever in Your presence we will sing
We will worship, worship You
And endless hallelujah to the King
I will see You as You are
Love You with unsinning heart
And see how much You paid to bring me home
Not till then, Lord, shall I know
Not till then, how much I owe
Everything I am before Your throne
[Chorus]
And we will worship, worship
Forever in Your presence we will sing
We will worship, worship You
And endless hallelujah to the King
No more tears, no more shame
No more sin and sorrow ever known again
No more fears, no more pain
We will see You face to face
See You face to face
[Chorus x2]
And we will worship, worship
Forever in Your presence we will sing
We will worship, worship You
And endless hallelujah to the King
And endless hallelujah to the King
We'll sing
And endless hallelujah to the King 

In that moment all I could think about was the fact that you were doing just that...standing in front of Him...singing an endless hallelujah. No pain. No guilt. No shame. It made me so happy for you, yet incredibly sad that I was unable to worship with you there too. 

   I don't have too long to update as I am in the middle of ballet stuff for our Spring recital, but it has been a bit of a crazy week. I ended up at Urgent care twice and the last time it was for pain and swelling in my throat. I am now fairly certain my thyroid is acting up, so hopefully I can get it back to normal soon. A constant feeling of pain, swelling, and food caught in your throat is really annoying!

Love and miss you!

Your Favorite Second Born,

Carley

9 months old and growing!

 Lucy loved the therapy ball at her Auntie's moms house

 Owen was the life of the party today!