Surprise!

So back in February I decided that even though it was RIGHT next to my due date I was going to throw Bryan a surprise 30th birthday party. He hates crowds of people, parties, and being social, so I knew I was walking into dangerous territory but I couldn't resist. We have never had a party for him since we got married other than our combined Dave and Busters get together we have done in the past with close friends. But that in my mind doesn't count! So I asked Candee to help me out (the poor lady did WAY more than she was probably anticipating but she made it an awesome party!) since I knew it was going to be tough to pull off. Well, it was harder than I thought! I realized as the time drew closer that I really couldn't work on much for the party with the kids around because Colin would rat me out. So anything I did had to be when I was totally alone...and well that doesn't happen very often. After a not to long deliberation with myself, I decided catering it was the best option because I couldn't cook that much food without being obvious. Sadly his favorite place doesn't cater so I opted for the second best and did Qdoba and had a delicious nacho bar. We eat there once a week so it seemed appropriate! haha I have NEVER been able to surprise Bryan with ANYTHING. If I say, "Hey I got your bday present" He replies with, "Oh, it's ____ huh?" And he is right every time. I don't know how he reads my mind like he does, but it's scary! So keeping this a secret was TOUGH to say in the least. I had to say things to throw him off the trail completely, which even though he won't admit it, totally worked! He WAS surprised and I DID IT! We had a mad science party and Jack and Candee did a great job at all the decor! They made a science table for the adults and the kids, and had all sorts of fun gadgets for people to play with and experiment with. We also did a Periodic Table of the Elements cookie chart that was PERFECT and the gal who did it really went above and beyond! So all in all it was a great party...just missed having you there as usual. I had to get the ice myself which was just not ok and let's face it...you were always the life of the party! I don't know when I will get used to you not being there but it still just feels weird. In my mind I expect you to show up and be the fun talkative party guest who by the end of the nights knows more about everyone there than I do! Heaven must be having a blast with you there!
  Well, I have a thousand things to do, and no matter what my list keeps growing. We are trying to find a place to have ballet classes this year...it has been one of the most frustrating experiences of my life! I am trying to get Lucy to come out...also frustrating! I am trying to keep my house/laundry up to par so that when I DO have her it's all finished and I don't have to be stressing about it. Because you know I will! I am trying to be a good mom to 3 little kids who are not handling all the changes around here well so emotions have been high and tension even higher. And most of all, I am trying to mentally prepare myself that you won't be coming to meet Lucy when she is born. That right there makes me sick/cry just saying it.
 I love you and I miss you more and more!
Your Favorite Second Born,
Carley
Some pics from the party and my 37 week picture with Lucy. Oh how I wish she would get to meet her grandpa when she makes her debut!

These are from the 4th of July....we had a low key day and had dinner at the Spears then went to your house to light off some fireworks. Of course all the kids stayed inside because it was "too loud and scary" and the adults all acted like kids and had fun blowing stuff up! Mom was up north camping with homegroup...shocking I know! And in order to keep her from leaving early they failed to tell her they spotted a bear close to their campsite. Weston did not enjoy it so much I heard and was a bit of a party pooper but hey what do you expect from a little boy who is missing his daddy?!