Needless to say daddy the last 2.5 years have brought about some pretty radical change in our family. One day you think life will keep going on as it always has and the next you hear that your dad is terminally ill and won't make it through the summer. Change has never been something I am good with, in fact I go out of my way to avoid it. We eat at the same places, I order the same few rotation of things and rarely think to try something new. I do the dishes and laundry the same way I did them from the start of our marriage including folding and how I put them in the drawers. OCD doesn't really cover it I guess. haha Somethings however I have no control over and eventually have to learn to accept. This last year has felt like one change after another! Stacey getting married, getting pregnant with #5, changing churches, mom remarrying, and us hopefully moving into a new house. These changes have kind of sent me into panic mode...not going to lie! One of the most difficult changes for both Bryan and I was the decision that we needed to seek another church. Bryan has gone there since birth and I've gone there for about 14 years I think. We love it, we love the people, we love the teaching, however God strongly laid on our hearts {years} ago that He has other plans with our family. We fought it so hard because we didn't *want* to leave. Some people leave churches because of disagreements, disputes with other members, etc, we have none of that! We simply knew God was telling us it was time to move on. We talked about it so much over the last 3 years and really sought the Lord on the direction He was taking us and because we didn't have a clear picture about where that was we just kept doing our thing until we got some clarity. Last summer after Lucy was born we really went through some major transition and growing pains as a family and that is when we knew we needed to take the step and trust He knew what was best. We mostly did church at home on Sundays as a family and it was a good time of growing for us. Fast forward to this year and our family vision just kind of...formed. We never really had any clear "direction" other than the convictions we live in our daily life so to suddenly go "YES! THIS is what God is doing with us!" felt really liberating! We still have not found "the church" yet but God has directed our path and I know He will make it clear to us when we are where He wants us. It's a very strange feeling to not have a home church and be disconnected from that supprt because we've been connected to one for so long but it also has forced us to rely on Him and to branch out of our comfort zone and meet new people and form new friendships, for that I am truly grateful!
I have a stack of laundry {literally} the size of the Texas on my couch so I need to go fold it before I crash! I love you and miss you so much! Life is pretty crazy right now but God is good even in the crazy!
Your Favorite Second Born,
Carley
Here are some grandkid pics for you! They're growing way too fast!
Colin and his giant pooper scooper
Can you believe how big he is daddy?!
Remember when we were little and we would trash the yard? I never understood why you got so mad...until my own children did it it to me! I'm deeply sorry for ruining your landscape that I know you worked so hard on!
Car rides wear this little guy out!
Our oldest in Heaven and oldest on Earth.
Colin and Mollie are buds!
Your little Cessy ballerina!
Owen is a ham like you! He loves to make people laugh!
We took a family zoo trip last weekend, it was so fun!
Here is our Mollie...growing up so fast!
Crazy Lucy! She is Tobin's child in every way!
Wouldn't sleep....then fell asleep mid play!
Homeschool trip to a farm! They had a blast until the way home when all they could say is, "I'm hot. I'm hungry. That place had flies and smelled like poop I don't want to go there again!" Can't win!
Seriously she is the cutest thing!
15 weeks with your 5th grandbaby!
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