A Missed Anniversary

Today would have been you and mommy's 29th wedding anniversary. Ironically I received the wedding invite for her and Tim's wedding today. I took her out to lunch for you and left roses by her bed, I knew she would have an emotional day. We had a chat during lunch and one thing that came up that we both read in a blog was a gal who stated something along the lines of: "This new life after losing a loved one wasn't unplanned. God knew all along that this would be our future. We only see in time, He sees in Eternity." It helps so much to realize that though this was a huge blow and seemed to come out of left field, it really wasn't unexpected. God knew from the beginning of time that this would be our families journey. He ordained your days, just the same as He has ordained mine. For us your life was cut short, to Him, it was exactly to the last second He had planned. It might not make me feel any better because in MY mind you lived until a ripe old age, but it does help me realize the importance of giving each day to Him because He already has my future planned! Is there anything wrong with thinking about all the fun things Bryan and I will do if we both make it until he retires or how many grandkids we will have? No, but I also can't get so wrapped up in what I WANT to happen that I miss what He is trying to do NOW.
 I love you and miss you terribly!
Your Favorite Second Born,
Carley