Running shoes

  Well 4 out of 5 are now sick. Cecily seems like she has been fighting it off since yesterday but isn't full blown sick. Colin and I have it the worst and so far Bryan and Owen aren't too bad. Just sore throats and congestion. I called the nautropath today and she set me up with all sorts of stuff to help us kick it so I am hoping in the next day or 2 we will be over it. I am not getting my hopes up though because usually when we actually get something it lasts a little while. I am the one who always gets the little flu bugs here and there but the rest of them stay pretty healthy so I can't complain. Bryan says I am a weakling but I told him I am just a delicate flower...who gives birth to huge children at home! haha So anyhow, we spent the day just lazing around and feeling icky. After going to the nautropath I decided to run to the grocery store to get stuff for tomato and basil soup. I ran into a few people I know and kept my distance so I didn't spread germs. I felt bad even shopping while sick, but I washed my hands before touching the cart and didn't touch my face or anything the whole time! haha The soup and grilled cheese sandwiches turned out delicious and hit the spot for all of us. Cecily wouldn't touch the soup because she has a 6th sense for when something is good for her so she just ate the sandwich and choked down a spoonful of soup. We will fight that battle when we are feeling better. hehe After dinner we went on a walk, and true to Colin's self he said, "Can we take the car on our walk? I don't feel like walking." I told him while laughing that defeated the purpose of exercising. On our walk we discussed his birthday tomorrow. I told him it was his last day being 3...and that tomorrow he would be 4! He was totally amazed by that and said that he was getting so big...I have to agree! My baby is growing up before my eyes...very bittersweet! He is such a fun little kid and his laughter is contagious! You would be so proud of your little colly wally!
  While getting ready for our walk I went into the closet to get my tennies and realized as I pulled them out that you were the one who bought them for me. Technically you bought them for mom...but I stole them back when I still lived there. It didn't make me cry but definietly gave me an ache in my heart. It's funny how those moments creep up on you so fast! I wasn't even thinking about it, then the memory hits and with it comes the emotion. I am doing ok today, so I guess you could say I am an emotional roller coaster! I hate being so up and down but I know it's part of this journey and eventually I will even out again. (Until I get pregnant! ha!) A passage that has ministered to me the last few days, especially today, is Psalm 73. To make a long story short over the last (almost) 3 months since your death I have frequently poured out my heart to the Lord about feeling like this is "unfair" for our family. (As if losing a loved one ever seems fair to anyone's family!) I see those around me who don't know the Lord or live purposely against His will, yet their lives seem to be fine, and even dare I say great! But that passage reminds me that even though they may have it "great" now, their time of judgment will come, and He will gather His children and make all things right. And even now as they think they have it great, they are missing the most important and valuable treasure they could ever own, Jesus. The last verses are what I remind myself of daily,
"²⁵ Whom have I in heaven but you?
    And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
²⁶ My flesh and my heart may fail,
    but God is the strength of my heart
    and my portion forever.

²⁷ Those who are far from you will perish;
    you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
²⁸ But as for me, it is good to be near God.
    I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge;
    I will tell of all your deeds.^"

 So once again my Jesus reminds me that I can not see from His perspective. Things aren't what they appear and one day He will return and it will all make perfect sense! 

  Well I am off to bed! Tomorrow is my little man's birthday and even though we aren't feeling well I am going to get up early and take him to breakfast before Bryan goes to work. I love you so much daddy and I wish you were here to celebrate your grandson with us! 

 Your Favorite Second Born,

Carley

Pics of our day today...the shoes you "gave" me! They are still in good shape...probably because I never use them...yikes! Owen has learned how to maneuver in his walker and made his way to his swing to push it. And lastly, Colin and Bryan were reading some Spider-man comics together.