Hoping for a miracle

This week I am going into the nautropath for my appointment to see if we can get a regiment together to "cure" my dishydrosis. Cecily also has an appointment to hopefully at least help her poor digestive system. I think she got her digestive system from her grandpa! It hates her! haha I know it'll be a small miracle for my hands to heal because so far only pregnancy has helped them have any sort of relief from the blisters and cracking. The lady who we are seeing has gotten rid of all her food allergies and her dishydrosis (which is what made her become a nautropath allergy specialist) with natural remedies so I am hopeful that she can help! I have lived with it so long I don't even remember not having it...but one things for sure...getting used to living with it doesn't make it any easier! Being a mommy and having to do simple things like washing your hands after changing a diaper or giving a bath are excruciating! It would be wonderful to not dread those things and actually be able to enjoy them! (Although, let's be real, changing a diaper is never THAT fun, blisters or not! haha) I took some before pictures, but they actually don't look too bad right now! A few weeks ago...oh my goodness...they were AWFUL! They brought a whole new meaning to the word "raw".
  We have a few things going on this week but not too much. I am trying to slow things down a little as more activities start up. On Saturday we have your memorial pinewood derby and are racing your car! It will be so special to see it racing with all the others because it's something you made with your daddy when you were little. Frank put new wheels on it, so it's in great driving condition! If you win, we'll know you are pulling strings in Heaven! hehe
  The last two nights have been...trying! The night before last I literally didn't get even 1 minute of sleep! I watched the sun come up as the boys were both awake and had that moment of "are you kidding me?!" as I realized sleep was not gonna happen that night. When Bryan woke up I was able to lay down for a little nap...but going an entire day on 2 hours of sleep...with 3 little kids...yikes! I think I hit that wall around 4pm and pulled up to the grocery store...opened my car door...closed it and went home. I couldn't even go in I was that tired! I had anticipated what a great nights sleep I would get that night but sadly, that still wouldn't happen. I went to bed at 8:30 thanks to Bryan, but was abruptly woken up at 9:30 by a screaming Cecily who wanted mommy to tickle her back. I guess daddy wasn't good enough. It was an hour and a half later before she actually fell asleep...then in true Owen fashion, he did a late nap and was wide awake until...oh I don't even know! I decided it was better to stop watching the clock because I was getting more and more depressed as the hours passed. haha All I know is it was 2am before I was able to climb into my wonderful bed, I was woken up every hour to nurse Owen then had to get up early to shower and get everyone ready for church. I would say I am excited to go to sleep tonight but I don't want to get false hopes up! haha Dorothy is spending the night tonight which means I have help in the morning so it shouldn't be too bad tomorrow even if I don't get much sleep again tonight.
   Tomorrow is Colin's friend Jackson's Birthday party so I took him to Target to pick out a present. In true Colin form, he picked out 30 some things HE wanted but was unhelpful picking Jackson's gift out. I finally got him to focus after he tried to buy half the store for his birthday and I hope Jackson likes it! I wish I could say Colin put a lot of thought into it...but that would be a lie! haha It is a good growing experience for him though, I like taking him to pick gifts out for other people instead of him going to get himself something. It is better to give than to receive! You always showed us that principle in your own life! You will always be remembered as one of the most generous people I have ever known. And you never expected anything in return, just that those you gave to, carried it on and gave to others generously when they were able.
  Well it's dinner time then I have some MAJOR cleaning and laundry to tackle! I don't understand how 5 people can trash a house this bad...but who am I kidding, we trashed your house all the time! Sorry daddy! Love you and miss you!
OH speaking of miracles! I almost forgot...I don't know how I could forget to tell you!!! COLIN IS POTTY TRAINED! You are probably up in Heaven doing a daddy style jig!!!! I am SOO happy to have a kid out of diapers! You know what that means? Baby #4 will probably be on it's way soon! HAHA
 Your Favorite Second Born,
 Carley
Here are a few pics for your enjoyment. The first one is of my hands...lovely huh?! The second is of Cecily, we found her sleeping shirtless on the couch and dare I say she looked JUST like you used to! The 3rd is of poor Owen getting put in Cecily's swimsuit because Auntie Mattie couldn't find his! haha