Late night happenings

   It's past midnight and as usual your two youngest grandkids are still wide awake. Bryan is in our room trying (by the sound of it) with little luck to get Owen down and I put a movie on for Cecily because she was running around the living room singing and dancing rather loudly and I was afraid she'd wake up Colin. It was a bit of a crazy day but nothing I couldn't handle! Woke up, made the kiddos breakfast, got the meal for my friend part way cooked so I could put it in her crock pot, then took a quick shower while the kids played. I walked in to get the kids loaded up to bring said meal over and what did I find? Poop...allllll over Owen, the floor, boopy, and toys. Sadly now that he is rolling, messes like that don't stay in the same spot! So instead of leaving on time like I thought I would, I had to give Owen a bath, scrub the carpet, and start a load of wash. I purposed not to let it stress me out and just go with it! I find myself lately getting easily rattled by things that delay me, change my plans, or just inconvenience me. I know part of that is still dealing with my grief, but part of it is my sin nature and I need to more careful how I react to such things. I am noticing that Colin is starting to take on some of my "bad habits" and it's not something I am proud of! I never realized when I started having kids that they would teach me so much about myself. I see things they do or say and I realize they are copying me. It's humbling and scary all at the same time! They love me, adore me, and depend on me, so much so that they model their lives after what they see in me. If I want them to be like Christ, I have to make sure who they see in ME is Christ. I can't tell them they need to behave a certain way if I am not also conducting myself in that manner. Of course, you already knew all of that! hehe Another one of those "I totally get it now! Sorry!" moments when you realize your parents weren't the "worst parents ever!" Which by the way, according to Colin, I have now joined that club! Go me! I must be doing something right!
    The sky lately has been gorgeous! We've had some awesome monsoon storms and they always give the best sunsets! I have always loved looking up at the sky, one of my favorite marvels in God's creation, but now that you are up gone, looking up towards the sky has a whole new meaning! It somehow makes me feel closer to you. To imagine you "up there" walking with Jesus, talking to everyone (we all bet that you have already met everyone up there!), and worshiping your Savior! I admit I'm a little jealous! I'd love to see you again, meet my baby boy, and most importantly see my Jesus face to face! But I have lots to do here for the kingdom, so I am trying to use my time wisely before He takes me home. The song Arise came on my ipod today and i've always loved it, but today it has two meanings. Part for Jesus and part to see you again.
Someday, tell you someday
There’ll be a way, there’ll be a way
For You and I to be face to face
Eye to eye and heart to heart

Someday, there’ll be some way
I’ll know so much more than I know today
I’ll be with You and You’ll hold me close
There won’t be a moment away from Your embrace

Oh I can’t help it, I’m weak
I want that day to come
When all of heaven breathes in me
My chains are gone, my spirit’s free and I’ll…

Arise, and meet my father there
I’ll be home at last
Arise, You’ll wipe the tears from my eyes
And I’ll sing forever

One day, tell you one day
This fleshly tent will fade away
And I’ll that I’ll do is just stare at you
In Your power and Your beauty

Oh You won’t be ashamed, no You’re not ashamed
Of this precious child that You have made
Oh when oh when will I see
That that’s what I am and that’s what I’ll be 

  I have lots more to say, but a little boy who needs to go to sleep and a crazy girl who thinks she doesn't need sleep! I love you daddy! And it goes without saying that I miss you like crazy!!!
Your Favorite Second Born,
Carley
A picture of the sky. Cecily and Owen at your house playing and laying in Tobin's bed (I think Cecily thought she was a princess in her big bed). And last little Owen tonight at 12:30am trying to get out of his rocker!