Not where I belong

  Today started very late...I was up until 1am with your crazy grand daughter who had what she thought was a nap instead of bedtime and Owen who just hasn't quite gotten his schedule figured out yet. Then thanks to his teeth got me up every 45 minutes from 1am-6am, so my wonderful hubby got up at 9:30am with the kids and let me sleep til NOON (uninterrupted)! It was fantastic! I am so spoiled by him! He even fed them all lunch while I was sleeping. We got dressed and ran to Ikea because I needed a picture frame that they didn't sell online. (first world problem right there!) Ikea on a Saturday always takes a while even if you convince yourself "it's going to be a quick trip!" Sure enough Owen pooped his pants...stop to change him. Colin pees ALLLL over the floor...stop to get the cleaning guy to mop it up and paper towel to dry him off. I didn't have a change of clothes because I had left my bag in the car for the "quick trip" so he had to spend the rest of the time in wet skivvies, pants, and flip flops. I am hoping he will remember how irritating it was and NOT do that again! But that would be too easy! ha! Finally got out of there and headed home for naps, and while they were napping I ran to Target, Hobby Lobby, Costco, and to get gas. It was amazingly fast without having to drag kids along...now I get why whenever we wanted to go with you, you would say, "No, it would be easier to go by myself!" haha By the time I got back the kiddos were up and Bryan made the wonderful suggestion to go to the park and Jason's deli. We ran around the park and the kids had a blast! I tried swinging but quickly felt sick to my stomach from all the back and forth! haha I don't know how I used to swing for hours at a time! I am officially old I guess. You know you grew up in AZ when it was 102 outside and we both said, "hey, it's not bad out today!" Jason's Deli was delicious as usual and the kids always enjoy the free ice cream at the end. We get a kick out of Owen because he does the baby bird with his mouth when he sees people eating. Bryan thought it was funny to feed him things and watch him open up reeeeally wide and spastic-ally move his wrists! Something that made me smile was Cecily learning to still do things that Grandpa used to do to her. She always used to love when you would say, "Put your hands in the air and go WOOOO" and then you'd tickle her pits when she flung her arms up! Now that you aren't here to do it...she spontaneously does it to herself including tickling her own pits! She was doing it at Jason's tonight so I took a picture for you! This morning she walked around saying, "Grandpa, where are you?!" And after a little while Colin replied, "Cessy, he died! Stop asking!" It was funny and heart wrenching at the same time! She then moved on to, "Poppin (Tobin), where are you?!" which lead to Turly (Curly), Manny (Mattie), and Dorothy also being summoned. She really does think she is a princess! haha So that was our day...we are now home and just relaxing before a busy day tomorrow. We have church, a teachers meeting, and I have lots of stuff to do for Jamie's shower next Saturday.
   As I was listening to the radio during my errands and having my talk to Jesus in the car time, the song came on the radio by Building 429 "Where I belong." Again, another song I have heard a lot but now that I have yet another reason to look forward to heaven it has become that much more real. And it pretty much sums up my heart. "All I know is I'm not home yet, this is not where I belong. Take this world and give me Jesus, this is not where I belong." Nothing in this world can satisfy me! It's hard to explain because it's not that I didn't always look forward to Heaven and meeting Jesus face to face, but now my heart GETS IT! We are in a temporary place and as much as we try to make this feel like "home" it just isn't and will never truly fill that ache in our hearts.
   I want to keep pouring my heart out (there is LOTS in there right now) but I want to spend some time with the kiddos before bed too. I love you and I miss you thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much!
  Your Favorite Second Born,
   Carley
A video of Owen in the swing at the park. Then some pictures of Owen and his bird "beak" and Cecily tickling her pits! I also added a picture of her funny outfit from the other night. I told her to go get ready for bed after her bath and she came out with cowgirl boots on, a fish purse, and fish bracelets. I was able to put pjs on her, but she still slept with the boots and accessories on! haha