New perspectives

Today was a day of more difficult memories and reminders. I guess it's a good thing I have so many great memories and reminders of you because not every daughter can say that about their dad. You were the best! I had you wrapped around my finger! Hehe I remember all the orthodontist appointments that I cried my way out of when I wanted to do a sleepover instead. You couldn't resist your girls when we cried! Sorry for taking advantage of that! I want you back so bad it hurts! I keep thinking that I will wake up and this will all be a nightmare! I don't know when this will feel real but I almost dread that day. I am going to visit your grave this week for the first time since fathers day. It seems so surreal that in order to "see" you I have to go to a grave. I hope it gets easier with time! One good thing that has come from this is a whole different perspective on how to help others who have gone or will go through a similar experience. I now know what is helpful to say and what only makes your heart bleed more. As much as I wish I never had to walk this road, like all the other experiences God has given me I know He will use this to glorify Himself. And maybe even use me to help others! Well your grandson won't go to sleep so I gotta go rock him! I love you daddy!
Your Favorite Second Born,
Carley
Me and Owen at 1:15am...he was wide awake and very hyper!