Sunday Sadness

I should have known better than to wear make up today. I hadn't worn it in almost 2 weeks because of all the random crying but I had been doing so good the last few days that I thought it would be ok. Maybe it was because I was wearing it I don't know but I walked into your room and just lost it. I saw your side of the bed untouched in almost 2 weeks, the pictures that I framed mommy from your funeral, your wedding band sitting on mommy's jewelry box, your clothes all hung up just where you left them in the closet and I couldn't handle it. Colin came in and gave me a hug and told me not to cry. He then saw a picture of you sitting on the desk and said, "When my grandpa Wayne died I cried...but he always told me not to cry so I stopped." I told him that you wouldn't mind him crying when he missed you. He must be remembering all those times that he would cry when he was being emotional and you told him to stop! hehe I also came across what I think is the last picture I have of you holding Owen. It is on your couch and you are looking at him with such love and pride! I know Owen Wayne has big shoes to fill but he already has his grandpas love of people so he's well on his way! When we got to the house mommy wasn't there so we had to let Curly out and she was so excited to see us! She flew out of the cage and ran all over licking toes and happily kissing the kiddos. Cecily adores her and just follows her around saying, "Come here Curly!" but of course Curly doesn't listen. Curly is so much fun though and even your Mattie who hates dogs has come to love her! She bounces around the house and brings such a light spirit. God knew we needed her! We almost lost her to an owl this morning but mommy scooped her up and ran inside before she became a Curly fry snack. That owl would have been very disappointed with how little meat she has on her! She is all fluff!
  This week will finally slow down and I am looking forward to less stuff going on. Mommy has a busy week though doing all the fun grown up stuff. Social security, insurance, bills, etc. She is a strong woman and has God's help but I know she misses her love so very much! I will always remember the smile on her face when you came home from work! Bryan says that I am more devastated losing my dad than I would have been if it was him but I told him that wasn't true. But between you and me...he might be right! hehehe I love you daddy! Oh and my friend Beth lost her baby today, be looking for him/her so you can show him/her around and give lots of grandpa love!!
Your Favorite Second Born,
Carley
It's blurry but I took this picture for you of Curly giving Colin kisses tonight!