Heavenly reunion

As I am sure you know by now, Betsy went to join you and Jesus in heaven today. My heart just broke into pieces when I heard the news! Just like you, I know she is home and heaven is the best place she could be, but I can't help but grieve with her husband! He is now walking the hardest road he has probably ever been called to walk! Some might think that for all of us it's "easier" because we knew it was coming, but nothing can actually prepare you for the moment that you see that last breathe! You just stare...and wait...and internally (or externally) plea for their chest to rise and fall again....yet it never does! Knowing ahead of time doesn't make it any easier when the reality hits...you're gone! Your soul is with Jesus and your body is now empty. It's the most difficult realization to ever have! Another reminder that this world is not our home!
  I read through the Fathers Legacy journal you wrote about 10 years ago. It was like talking to you again reading through all your funny childhood stories and precious journey with Christ. I learned that you loved your moms homemade pancakes with fresh berries you picked. And that your dad made a great split pea soup! It made me start one of my own for my kids, I want them to have something to read about my childhood stories and journey with Christ. That is one huge lesson this has taught me is that this life is so short and that the precious memories we make now are what our children and grandchildren will have to pass on to their children. I want my kids to know how precious Jesus is to me, that they are loved and cherished, and that I desire above all for them to have a relationship with Christ even stronger than mine. I know not when the Lord will take me home, and I pray that I live a long life, but if I don't, I want to have already written things down to encourage them in their walk with the Lord if I cannot be there. My dear friend Julie shared recently on her blog that her mom had left her stuff like that for her to look at after she had passed (also from cancer) and it made me want all the more to be thinking about ways to encourage my kids in their walk with the Lord even if I am gone!
  Tonight we brought a pizza over to the family for dinner. We all ate, shared funny tv show moments, and played outside with Curly. Life just keeps on moving! It has been almost a month since you left to be with Jesus and every day that passes feels that much more lonely without you here. I'm so grateful for my heavenly father who has held my hand and walked along side me during the darkest time in my life!
  I better get to bed! Tomorrow is Bryan's birthday and we are having your family over for lunch. It will be sad not having you there but maybe you can eat some cake up there to celebrate with us!
 Your Favorite Second Born,
   Carley
I passed this while getting something out of your closet. My heart bled a little seeing your rings together...you may be gone but you are still very loved and cherished by your wife!